My eyes are swollen
My throat is sore
I can not cry
My tears anymore.
Tonight I sat alone
I wept so many tears
Every time I was about to stop
Crashing back, came all the fear.
Tonight I sat with my teddy
The bear I've had since I was seven years old
I wept even more when I remembered
All the secrets he'd been told.
I clung to him like I would with the one I love
My tears fell faster as I buried my face in his head
My whole body racked with convulsions
How I wished those tears had fled!
My heart was so heavy
It was cold and cruel
Why did my life turn out this way?
How could I be such a fool?
When you look into the past
You're supposed to be proud of the things you achieved
But all I do is cry and wonder
Why did those things have to leave?
2006 was a terrible year
I lost my boyfriend, best friend and home
I thought 2007 would be better
But I still feel so alone.
I can't share my feelings with anyone
They think I am happy inside
They have no clue of the countless nights
I have sat alone and cried.
No one knows I still love him
Nor how much I miss the past
They have no idea my heart
Is still wrapped inside a cast.
And I will never let them know Tomorrow I'll wipe my eyes
I'll apply my makeup and smile my smile
While everything inside will die.
And tomorrow night when I'm alone
I'll stare at the cracks in the wall
Tears will pour down my face
And I'll continue my silent fall.
Because I'm waiting for it all...to come to an end.
**The line 'Is still wrapped inside a cast,' is referring to the fact my heart is broken**
**I know this a mess.**
