Addiction

Its an addiction
something that won't leave
something that's haunting me
but still i can hear its taunting
laughing sinisterly and yelling horrifically
making it seem like its needed
it feels like its encouraging me to cut
always forcing me or controlling me
screaming at me and calling my name
saying its gonna keep me sane
but still i feel it in my veins
all i see is blood that bleeds endlessly
while i watch it hopelessly and die inside
listening to the voice in my head talking
with its creeping hands grasping mine
taking total control of my brain
i feel like I'm going insane!
then the sharp point does its thing
why can't it stop its evil singing tune which plays in my mind over and over again like this,
cut cut cut till it bleeds
ride until you've done the deed
making it your noble steed
and increase your speed till you feel the need
those words...those words frighten me
stinging me and increasing my heart rate
after I've done it i feel nothing
I'm oblivious to everything around me
and so naive and vulnerable to many
then i just break down and sob
and the tune plays all over again
cut cut cut till it bleeds
ride until you've done the deed
making it your noble steed
increase your speed till you feel the need