My worst enemy

My worst enemy is my mind
bad sh*t is always going on inside

It makes me not sleep it makes me not eat
All the bad is playing over and over like a song on repeat

I close my eyes and try to work it through
but still the anger and pain want undo

I wish it would all go away
I don't want this pain to stay

My head hurts and my heart beats fast
D*mn how long will this pain last

Just please leave me alone
Please let this pain be gone

My life will not last
If I keep living in the past

I want to remember the good times I had
not all the hurt the pain and the bad

Please god come into my heart
I'm tired of living in the dark

Help me get through
I want to start over and my life be new

So the bad the sad and the pain
Please leave this tired brain

-Ray Richardson-