My Conversation With Ana

"O Ana please teach me control,
Make my body perfect, my heart whole."

"I will help you, lead you to perfection,
Trust me, do you always want that reflection?"

"I will listen to you, do as you say,
I want to be thin, whatever the price I pay."

"Don't eat that, you're such a fat cow,
You want control? I'll show you how."

"The hunger pains, they're always there,
But as you've taught me, about the pain I mustn't care."

"That's a good girl, don't eat that,
Starving makes you thin, eating makes you fat."

"I don't want to be fat, I want to disappear,
I want to drown in all my tears."

"The touch of a rib, the feel of a bone,
I'm a part of you now, you're never alone."

"I never want to let you go,
How long I have to live I just don't know."

"I'll follow you all day in your head,
I'll be there when you wish you were dead."

"O Ana everyone's saying I'm getting thin,
But I just don't see how it is a sin."

"They're just jealous, they aren't like you,
They can't control hunger the way you do."

"They say they're worried and I hate to see them cry,
But I just keep going not knowing why."

"You mustn't care about what they say,
I'm here to help you and here to stay."

"When I raise my arms I see my bones,
I love the feel, but my heart it moans."

"That's very good you're almost there,
Keep holding on, though it doesn't seem fair."

"I feel dizzy and cold all day,
When questioned about it I don't know what to say."

"Never tell them the truth, they won't understand,
But when they walk out on you, I'll hold your hand."

"Everything's becoming blurry in my eyes,
I'm getting so tired of all the lies."

"You mustn't disappoint me, keep on going,
I won't be happy 'till every bone is showing."

"But they all say it's disgusting and wrong,
While in my head plays your torturous song."

"Like I said, they're jealous, they want control,
They want your body, they want your soul."

"Constantly counting every calorie I eat,
Cutting my bites small, nice, and neat."

"You've learned so much and still there's more,
I want you to exercise until you're sore."

"I feel faint when I run, so light and free,
I love you Ana, with you I'll always be."

"I'm the only one you can truly trust,
When you're my friend, perfection is a must."

"I looked into my mother's eyes,
And saw tears were there from all my lies."

"Don't listen to her, she'll ruin our plan,
Ignore her hurt while you can."

"Please Ana, leave me alone,
I don't want this anymore, can't stop on my own."

"You can't just get rid of me, I'm a part of you,
I'll always be here no matter what you do."

"Get out of my head! This has gone too far,
I don't want to be just another fallen star."

"O but you're not, you're mastering control,
You'll have a perfect body, a perfect soul."

"All these voices in my head go away,
I need to be healthy, this is not the way!"

"That's too bad, you just can't stop me,
I'm in your head, your pain I want to see."