The same again?

I'm lost in my world of sadness.

Who would ever believe that a friend, you've had in 11 years, would be so different, so suddenly?

It happened to me. I had never expected it. We had plans for Easter, 2020. It's hard to imagine such good friends as the two of us.

She says that everything is going to be all right. That it's going to be the same as it were at one point.

The sad thing about those words are, that it's not. It's a fact that it's not.

Still, I care about her, I miss her more than anything, and I love her. She's one of the best persons in the world.

I'm lost in my world of sadness.