Anorexia

I\'m sorry i wasn�t perfect
im sorry i never ate
Im sorry i was too obsessed
Over my looks and my weight

i wake up every single day
and look into the mirror
Starring at my reflection
till the imperfections come clear

i wanna be like those girls
the ones in magazines
strutting down the red carpet
posing for TV screens

i started on a small diet
and pushed away my food
i needed to lose weight
i needed to look good

I searched up ways to reduce weight
To consume less carbo and fat
I was willing to try anything
To the lowest it could get

i pushed a finger down my throat
to vomit after every meal
yet the agonizing pain I admit
Behind close doors I would seal

Soon I turned to empty plates
I starved all night and day
I was nothing but skin and bones
But i looked better this way

It wasn\'t suppose to get any worse
I thought I could control it
But I guess I should have stopped
When my clothes became too big

i always put on a big smile
but inside i go crazy
my stomach pains were really bad
and my vision turned out hazy

i pushed away all help
and ruined my sweetest friendships
i shut myself away from the world
Slowly, away i slipped

i gave up food to look good
but it did something else instead
It killed me inside out
And tore my soul into shreds

im sorry i was foolish
im sorry i never ate
Im sorry i never realized
Till it was too late