Because of Bulimia

"You're so tiny!"
"How'd you get so skinny?"
This is always what people say.
I just simply shrug my shoulders
Or say I don't know
And have to quickly walk away.

I'm sick of people wondering.
I'm sick of all their thoughts.
I'm sick of them asking why.
It's an answer I can't say
It's not something I want them to know.
So all I can do is lie.

Yes, I have a secret.
But most people already think the truth.
Now it's so hard to hide.
I do want to get better
But it's become out of my control.
Believe me, so hard I have tried.

I don't want rumors starting.
Nobody would understand.
What would they think of me?
All I want is to be healthy
To feel good about myself
And finally feel happy and care-free.

People look at me and think,
"She's gotten so tiny!"
"Wow, she's so small!"
But when I look in the mirror
Why do I see the exact opposite?
That's not what I see at all.

This problem I have
Has ruined my whole life
And I just want to get back on track.
I miss the happy days
When I never felt depressed.
I just want my old life back.