A goodbye poem

I'm walking to the kitchen
I'm getting out the knife
cutting my own wrist
taking my own life
now i see the blood
its dripping to the floor
I'm walking to the tub
i start to open the door
now you say you love
now he'll say he cared
because I'm about 5 minutes he knows i wont be here so lie to me alittle more
make me regret what i did
say your proud i was your girl
say your proud that I'm your Kidd
make me feel alittle worse its OK you can
the ambulance are on their way
your calling up my dad
you say he loves me
that he cares is that the reason hes never there
i have no reason to live
and now i have no choice
the room is getting darker
i can barley hear your voice
goodbye mother
goodbye my love
now its safe to say
that is what death feels like
and today is my last day