When will people stop hurting me?

\"the worst part about this is i know what i want, i know where she is, and i know she wants me too, and although she wants me too she does not want me enough to hurt our best friend.\"

everytime i find someone who can help me become the person i want to be, every time i find someone who can make me happy, and make all my anger and all my pain go away something comes and takes her from me; and although this one happened so fast, it hurt me deeper than most of the others.

i dont involve myself with a lot of girls, i am not the type to involve myself with a girl unless i believe it can go somewhere, and that always comes back to bite me in the ass. this time i found a girl i was willing to sell out for, she made me truly happy and i had real genuine feelings for her. this was the first girl i actually really liked in over 3 years, and she, just like all the rest hurt me.

i have been cheated on, put second to a drug, laughed at, and been made to feel asthough i am less than human. but never once have i cheated on a girl, never once would i put anyone but my family before my girl, and never once would i laugh at someone or make them feel like i have been made to feel. but this one stings a lot, this one really leaves a bad taste in my mouth.

she could be my \"dream girl\" and i have to walk away from that because my best friend is in love w/ her and she believes it would hurt him too much to tell him so she would rather just end everything we had. i can not tell u what it feels like to finally let ur guard down enough to actually like someone and have them tell u that \"even though we have these feelings for each other we cant do this.\"

i have gone through a lot to get to the point where i can say i really, actually know what i want. to know what u want in live is an amazing achievement; but to know what u want and know where to get it, but not be able to is TORTURE! man this hurts