Regrets

I feel so alone,
and weak.
No one can help me,
for what has happened will never go away.

I cry myself to sleep at night,
thinking of all the things that I've done wrong...
I ask myself:
"Did I deserve this?", "What has happened to me?"

At first I tell myself that it wasn't my fault...
But then again,
as I continue to think,
I had convinenced myself that it was all my fault!

I have no one else to blame,
but myself!!
As these thoughts continue to repeat themselves,
I began to cry!

I cried myself to the point,
that I couldn't controle myself.
I thought of what I could do,
and when I finally had an idea..

I walked into the kitchen,
pulled out a sharp razor..
Locked myself in my room,
and began to look into the mirror...

I put it up against my skin...
and started cutting away!
When I finished,
I realized exactly what I had done...

Blood dripping,
onto my carpet...
leaving a stain...
Which it still remains...

I broke down,
into a million of tears...
Knowing that I regret
what I've done!

All because a guy...
and what he decided to do...
I almost ended my life!
And that scared me...