GoT tO lEt LoOsE!

Looking for someone to talk to,
feeling so low,
no one to talk to ,
no where to go,

Mind thinking too much,
brain filled with pain,
I've cried so many tears,
that they have dried and left no more room for more rain,

there is an emptiness in my heart,
that was once filled with happiness,
but look at me now,
I'm nothing but a mess,

the hurt kills me more and more,
it's like a decease with no cure,
and i really do know,
that there is no cure for sure,

depression pills won't help,
there just a way to make money,
they don't help my heart,
or heal my aching agony,

Telling people won't help either,
they will just say it's part of life,
they say this,
we all have been in a strife,

they think it is normal,
to always be sad,
and that is the one reason,
that makes me also mad,

my friends aren't sad,
there happy as can be,
but they don't know my secret,
if they did the probably wouldn't like me,

the pain builds up inside,
and when i get in a fight is explodes like a bomb,
and i say things i don't mean to,
like when i say i hope you die mom,

why should i hate fakes,
just because they have a great life,
why should i hate emo's,
just because they use a knife,

why should i love guys,
if they just break my heart,
why should i trust people,
that they won't let me fall apart,

this questions run through my mind,
and those answers i get,
in my room,
think and sit,

why should i love,
just to get hurt again,
but those animals,
we call men,

yet some do find happiness,
get married and such,
but let me tell you something,
divorce probably costs much,

I am afraid to die,
and not so my family,
because even tho we fight,
i know they really do love me,

i don't want to go away,
but i can't take pain,
it is just to much,
for my poor little brain,

no saying I'm stupid,
cause i get straight A's,
but once or twice,
in school I've had my days,

hiding the pain probably won't help,
but what would people think of me is what bothers me,
i mean would they see,

i just had to let loose my feeling,
and i know this paper is the place to,
but everyone reading this,
I am trusting you...........................

By,Denysia - Chapman-madden

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