I fall into that hole that I've fallen into so many times before.
I've lost the will to get back up, I don't want to fight anymore
I keep getting knocked back down
Falling with the only sight of the ground
I need a new sight to see
The sight of blood is the only thing good for me
I hate relying on it still
I was supposed to be over it a long time ago, but I don't know if I ever will
Seeing the blood fall from that painful slit
Shows me that I'm still as real as I'll ever get
For a while love made me feel real,
Now even that's getting more distant and I'm losing the deal
I'm tired of turning to the razor for a release
I want this pain and suffering to cease
I don't know how to make that happen
Every time I get my hopes up, blood pours and my spirits dampen
I try hard day after day,
I can't keep living this way
I need something more
I need someone to step up and open that door.
the only one that can do it is me
I don't know if I still can, I'll just have to wait and see...
