So Scared

I dont know anymore.
I have nothing to say.
Whatever i speak, backfires my way.
If I am positive it always turns out for the worst,
but if I am negative I still end up gettin hurt.

No matter how much I pray for you,
or how much i try,
there is never a happy ending.
And it always ends when I cry.

I am sick of dealing with all your shit.
I`m sick of all your lies.
I hurts me so much that I can`t even look at you straight in the eyes.

I pray that this gets better,
I pray that the ending is for the best.
but right now the conlcusion is unpredictable,
and until i knwo whats happenning I will have no rest.