I woke up today from my half-life.
I awakened in a bed of disheveled sheets.
I absorbed the current circumstances surrounded me.
My mind races from regression to progression.
All I ever wanted was for you to love me selflessly.
I needed you to lay naked with me in bed and laugh at my dumb jokes.
I needed there to be no mystery between us.
I needed us to dance under the moonlight as consumed lovers.
Now I search for love eternally in everything and everyone.
Solitude and isolation are the best antibiotics for what I lack within me.
Silently my heart fails me in situations that could set me free.
A life marked with disappointment at many different points in time.
I clung to divine hope and godly happiness in desperation.
All I ever wanted was for you to love me selflessly.
I needed you to lay naked with me in bed and laugh at my dumb jokes.
I needed there to be no mystery between us.
I needed us to dance under the moonlight as consumed lovers
Now I search for it eternally in everything and everyone.
As time has passed I have met and run from many other souls like my own.
I managed to run away from those who would pierce my heart.
I sabotage bliss by protecting you and forsaking myself.
Desperately for change nothing is different today.
Silently staring at the ceiling fan turn, I pray that my needs will change.
I woke up today from my half-life.
