Just when I think everything is OK,
I open my eyes and take a look closer,
I realise everything is falling apart,
Its like my world is over.
I don't get why it happens,
Or what I do that is so wrong,
People tell me its all OK,
But the vibes I get are too strong.
I know that this is how it goes,
I should be used to it by now.
It's the reason why I want to leave,
I need to get out of here somehow.
I'm sick of how no matter what,
No matter how hard I try,
I can't seem to do a good enough job,
I can't get anything right.
I've lost the trust I ever had,
Suffered so much betrayal,
All I can do is deal with it,
No matter how fake or real.
I'm tired of everything that happens,
I'm sick of yesterday, today and tomorrow,
I wish it'd all disappear if I close my eyes,
All the falseness, pain and sorrow.
I just want things to be right for once,
Without all the crap that comes in between,
You can't have good without some bad,
That's something you'd learn being me.
I feel like I'm a target,
And people suck when they try to aim,
Instead of hitting me spot-on,
They hit around me, causing more pain.
I'm not wishing for the world to stop,
Yet that might be an easier ask,
For everything to finally be OK, I guess,
Is just to hard a task.
