Love is dead

A blank piece of paper
no longer to be
it feels so much safer
knowing you wont see

this pen keeps on writing
every things gone
no more of the fighting
I'm so glad its done

to put a smile on my face
would take a lot
my heart has no steady pace
it used to beat, but now its not

lying alone in the dark
speaking with silence
feeling no emotion
i feel like the waves of an ocean
constantly moving
never sitting still
the sound so calming
but the feeling so ill

I'm hiding within
never to let my feelings show
i feel as though I'm living a sin
no one will ever know

its hard to ignore
what I'm feeling inside
i want so much more
but i feel i have to hide

i still like him
I'm not going to lie
it just hurts to know i must do this to us
he wants me back
but i cant say the words
should i stay
or should i go
I'm left with everything on my shoulders not knowing what to decide
is it worth being with him or should i just die