Waiting To Die

When will these tears stop falling?
When will I become whole?
When will I really smile again?
When will I stop playing this role?

I used to feel so much pain
Now all I am is numb
How I wish I were a toddler again
Always protected by my mum.

I'm tired of living a lie
I'm tired of smiling when I know it's fake
I'm tired of pretending everything is fine
I don't know how much more I can take.

I'm tired of sitting alone
Tired of doing nothing but cry
Tired of pretending to be happy
Just waiting around to die.

I'm watching my life flash by
But a part of it, I am not
Always on the outside looking in
Watching everything I care about slowly rot.

I no longer feel the pain
I don't even want to try
So I'll just sit here silently crying
And continue waiting to die.