Hidden words I cannot speak,
A silent promise I wish to keep,
There's nothing between the two of us,
Except for an eternity of doubt,
I have someone I cannot leave,
I love him far too much,
But I can't forget you,
Or leave your friendship,
Because it hurts to let it go,
It hurts to try and run off,
I see it every day
It's tearing us apart,
You, my best friend,
Can you not be happy for me?
Can you not just let me be?
From every angle that I see,
Everyone is turning against me,
On one side, they're saying,
This is how it's meant to be,
On the other side, they're screaming,
Just give it up,
It'll never work,
And how much comfort
Are they giving?
How much advice
Is being dropped in my lap,
For me to sort out
And decide?
I want to love him,
He has no idea,
He knows not what I write,
He knows not what I feel,
Countless times I've tried to tell him,
Tried to make him understand,
But he would never listen,
Or can I just not comprehend?
You say he doesn't like me,
And unfortunately,
I value your opinion,
And I think I'm starting to see,
Though it's killing me to say,
And I hate to even think,
Could it even possibly be?
Maybe he's not the one for me?
Or are you simply baiting me
Into thinking what is wrong
Is right?
Am I going crazy
Because I won't put up a fight?
I don't know what to do anymore,
For everywhere I turn,
I no longer know what is to be,
Because everyone is against me.
