Still Praying

Goes to the edge of her bed
buckles at the knees
closes her eyes tightly
hesitatingly breathes

puts her palms together,
even at the fingertips
tears stream down her face
as the words "please god" part her lips

"hey god its me again
in the same place as i was before
the bad end of the relationship
with my heart bleeding on the floor

in love once again with a liar
a coward who left when things got hard
i fell in love with a drugattic drunk
dear god, I'm such a retard

dear god i know this is my fault
for falling in love this is what i get
but god can you lend me your strength
to try and help me move on, forget

help me take his picture down
put his things away
please god I'm begging you
help me in some way

please god give me a sign
to try and help me understand
give me a cushion please
to help soften the fall when i land

i hate all of this crying
the pain is just getting to be to much
please god come out to me
i need your gentle touch

i know all of this sounds selfish
but can you do this please for me
that maybe just maybe
i might have a chance to be happy

and god, just one more thing
before i end this helpless prayer
please god make him happy
do whatever it takes, i don't care

i just want him to smile
even if it is because of her
please god save him from all this pain
save him from all this torture

please god give me your strength
give it to me just to lend
please god save me from all this pain
i loved him god, amen."