Understand

Do you understand,
What I endure,
What I am forced to endure,
What I want to get away from?

Do you understand,
The taunting I take,
The abuse,
The lost hours of sleep?

Do you understand,
What my life is like,
What i dream,
What I dread?

No, you don't,
No one does,
I don't want you to,
And no one else.

A week in my shoes,
Would clue you in,
But I won't give them up,
I need them to run away.

I'm glad you're ignorant
Remain that way
This isn't something you need
Not something you deserve

I wish you would understand,
But not endure that pain...
I wish you could know,
Without seeing it in action.

Please understand,
I do things for a reason...
Please understand,
My life is complicated.

I'm trying,
As hard as I can.
Trying to fight this,
Using your help.

I don't want to burden you,
You say I don't,
I don't want you to break,
But you say you're fine.

I'm glad you're here,
You are my everything,
However you want to take that,
Thats probably how it is.

You've helped me through so much,
Supporting me in this.
I've needed you so much,
And you stayed.

You've been everything to me,
My life,
And it has saved me.

© Emily Andriko