Fear

Nightmares getting worse
fear is coming over me
comes to rule my life
let me do things
that i do not want to....

looking at the knife
on my desk
it is still clean
no blood on it
it is calling my name
wants to cut in me

i do not know how long i can resist it
how long i will be strong enough
the time will come
the knife will win
the fear wil lead it
straight to me
straight in my body

everyone is telling me
to resist it
do not make the mistake
but they do not know
how difficult it is
I am getting weaker
my body is getting weaker
my mind is getting weaker

the good times are over
the bad ones are coming
waiting for me
till I am getting crazy
till i die