Tru story....

So here I am again, stuck, confused, lost......disappointed .
I am left where I started, angry and frustrated.
Not at the fact that I have no one for my own but at the
fact that I continue to try to fill an image that doesn't exist.
Sometimes I want to give up, just let it all go. The pain inside
nobody needs to know. I don't trust anybody anymore having a
friend or boyfriend is an illusion which people struggle to make real.
They can't cope with it neither separate the fantasies from realities.
I no longer have a heart, maybe I do but its covered in bandages from the hurt
I felt in my years and gated from the future pain I don't want to feel. Im sorry to
anyone I ever hurt or pushed away because of my own insecurities, I feel sorry for all
the people who never got to have my love. My love is truly one of kind but taken for
granted constantly. I'm sorry to those who never had the chance to have ma love because
it was wasted on guys who couldn't handle all my love. Now I'm so scarred I honestly
don't know how to heal or pull through sometimes. I wish I just had someone to talk
to. But I don't, I feel like im running from my fears but only to find my self in a dead end.
I feel like im humming a song with no tune. I'm standing on a rooftop but afraid of heights.
I don't know why I bother I just set myself up for disappointment. The littlest things make me cry, but then I notice im crying for unresolved problems I've kept inside for so long.
I'm tired...I just don't understand why people use the word love but yet cheat on one another, use the word love but they're so unfaithful. Say they love each other but move on so quick. When u love someone I mean truly love someone u never stop loving them you just become stronger and learn to live without them. If someone were to ask if I ever been in love I'd have to reply with a yes. If someone asked if im still in love? i wouldn't hesitate to reply with yes ....