I haven't yet realized what was so bad about their lives. Drinking away the pain is common, but I hadn't realized there was a pain. Addiction - it's the only way to describe it now. A few drinks here and there, a couple sips of the " hard stuff, " and bam, here they are, years later, still sipping.
To You:
You're one person in the morning when you're sober. I couldn't be any happier, cause that's the only time I see you that way. Can you even admit your addiction? Or is beer too common in your life? Do you think it's okay to drink away your nights, only to pass out and wake up each morning. Is that fair to me and Carmen? I wouldn't say so. You tell me the same thing at least three times. It's the same day and you can't even remember telling me that, three minutes ago. It's unfair that we have to go through our lives watching our PARENTS, both parents, drink away their nights. When I'm lonely at nights and I need somebody to talk to, I look into your room, only to find you sound a sleep... It's the alcohol that puts you there, so I'd rather not wake you, because I know you're too " tired " to wake up. I've always turned to you, Mom, when I needed somebody to cry too, even if you were drunk. But you've never reassured me that you remembered consoling me. Can you remember the last time you tucked me in? Or, did the alcohol take toll of your life, once again? I love you, those words are common. But have you said it lately? No. So why aren't they common anymore... You don't even come into my room that often to say goodnight. You just sit in your chair and yell, goodnight sweetheart.
