My love or my hate

Sitting in my room
your the only thing keeping me here
i think of you and warmth consumes me
i remember your promise
and hope revise me

sitting in my room
i can here all the yelling
i Begin to cry my tears my pain
i forget so much of non important
i lost grip of you

sitting in my room
i sharpen the blade
i feel the pain before i puncture
i bleed out to let myself go

sitting in my room
i think of you
i Begin to cry knowing
that u were keeping me here
letting go is just as hard
as staying here

sitting in my room
I'm torn between
love and hate
i love you to stay
hate them to leave
which is stronger