The overwhelming feeling to let her in - to finally have someone see - me - help me - but will she love me regardless
Is this a risk - i am willing to take - the possiblity of losing - someone so beautiful - to a mistress - most persuasive
What does either have to offer - me - The acceptance i have always dreamed - the love for just being - me - the majesty of being the very - best - A lonely world - full of inadequate subjects
If i utter the words to her - will she turn away - eyes fill up and cry - or forget me - please god no - will she leave me - high and dry - abandon - i just couldn't cope
But if she did - the other would find me - take care of me - just like always
Should i leave behind - my lover - and trade the life i know - on the bases of one - chance - of living for real
Will she let me go - watch me fall - as the other catches me - looks after me - i just don't know
If only - that special someone could see - how much i want to tell her - everything
That she could save me - from my Queen - and make me just like her - Beautiful
i am frightened - she will run away - and leave me all alone in this - that i will have no choice but to reside - in my bulimic fashion
i am frightened - she will run away - and leave me all alone in this - that i will have no choice but to reside - in my starving fashion
To then one day - wither away - and then have physical evidence - i am invisible - she can't see me - that i can forgive her - for not seeing me - i was to transparent - smile
Caught in turmoil - should i say it now - just open my mouth - and let myself go - i just don't know
Will she love me still - when i dribble red - will she love me still - when i pick out my deathbed
Will she love me still - when i denfy her efforts - will she love me still - when guilt catches up with me
Will i let her in tonight - into my secret life
Will i live down the shame - seen in her eyes
Will i ever make it better - so she can love me still
