My Numbness

I'm lying in a bed
with strangers all around
nothing seems to phase them
there are no smiles, just simple frowns

Its as if I'm disappearing
no words can come out right
I'm cast downwards into sadness
like darkness without light

But I'll still wipe away my tears
and act like everythings ok
but really my sky came crashing down
colors began to fade

and everyday the room seems to get smaller
people start to disappear
I wonder when its my time to leave
the end is coming near

but i wonder where they go
they leave and never show up again
i wonder if their pain is gone
have their lives come to an end

and as much as i have pondered
about when I'd go away
nothing seemed to matter
when that moment happened today

they rolled me down the hallway
while i was screaming at the walls
but no matter what i did
they wouldn't stop at all

and i reached that sacred room
where they had all gone and fled
away from that one simple room
where i had once laid in my bed

and now nothing else makes sense to me
except a final goodbye
to my life, my family and my friends
here's my final cry