Broken, Lost And Depressed

I dont even,
Know me anymore,
I dont know why,
I live my life for.

I want to change,
But also dont,
I could pray to god,
But Im fu(ked up and wont.

I think I like,
To be depressed,
To mourn my sorrow,
And then lay down to rest.

Ive lost so much,
And gained nothing at all,
Every time I try something,
I slowly begin to fall.

Im hopeless,
I cant do anything right,
Even when I try to die,
I can never see the light.

I wish I could be,
Happy and strong,
But I cant when nothings right,
And every things wrong.