I don't think of her any more,
except when the stars wink at me,
from a cold black sky, my heart
at the helm of a drifting ship,
shivering in cold blue diffidence,
and suddenly I remember how she shivered
in the wind, my warm breath playing
in her ear like a song.
Her kiss lit a fire, small and easily doused at first,
but it was not doused, growing each kiss,
raging out of control like the sun,
the hot and sensual sun,
and when I touched my lips,
my fingers bled, the fire consuming my heart,
leaving white ashes strewn over the wreckage.
I know I loved her. I know she loved me.
I don't like to think of that night under an immense sky,
the wind nudging me closer, insistently
until I held her in my arms, and our eyes
converged in the full moon, both halves glowing
like the embers in our hearts.
My empty arms ache with the weight of nothingness.
When she loved me, her eyes were huge, swallowing me
up in the juices of her love, like an ocean
in the midst of a vast universe,
the smell of her sweet breath in mine,
her mouth salty and sweet, like honey dripping
on my lips, my fingers wrapping around her hair,
tangled and insistent, then released by the wind.
The wind, warning me night after night the night will be gone,
the night will be gone, but I did not listen, nor did I hear,
until one evening when I saw it was a dream,
a nightmare of desire and deprivation,
until at last I shouted to the wind, the hateful wind
to stop, no more torment, but the wind, the heartless wind
tormented me still, until I screamed, but it does not stop.
I don't think of her anymore.
I know I loved her.
I know she loved me,
but her eyes don't see me anymore.
The wind breezily quiet, tired of taunting me,
my soul strangeley resigned, accepting
as truth when I say I don't think of her anymore,
except on nights like tonight,
when the flame of her kiss chases away the cold
in the deep hollows of my soul,
the light in her eyes flickering,
jagged points of light
shining on the treachery of my broken heart,
and I drifting like a ghost ship into the cold black night.
