Outburst Of Emotion

You know, at one point in time (and I do mean that in the 3-hours-ago sense) I would have been annoyed that my boyfriend talked to my best friend more than me. But I've changed, even if my best friend hasn't. I think that's probably the reason we're best friends...we have the same taste in guys. Unfortunately, we usually end up liking the same guys...at the same time. Last year, I had a mega-crush on this guy, and my best friend ended up liking him too. He started out liking me, then my best friend. He finally went out with my best friend; but when they broke up, none of us ever really talked to him again. Well, now it's happening again, except I've gone so far as to go out with the guy. I do wonder, is it going to be the same as last year? I hope not, because I really love him. If there's one thing my boyfriend taught me, though, it's that-even if I don't talk to him every day, I still love him-whereas my best friend talks to him every day and probably (eventually) gets bored of him. I don't even know if he knows how much I love him. It's difficult for us, because we live so far away. I guess I'll just have to wait and see what happens between all of us. I can only hope that this doesn't find it's way into wrong hands, because the last thing I want is for someone to hurt me, while I'm having an outburst of emotion...

*for Dedra, who told me that this journal entry was just as poetic as anything she could have done*