I cannot do it

I love him so much,
i want to be with him,
but he know probably doesn't want the same,
and it makes my heart dim,

i am always there for him,
i thought that he would see,
i thought then when he picked his girl,
that he would definitely pick me,

but i was wrong,
and i watched him go with this other girl,
and this hurts me so much,
cause he is number one in my world,

i feel like i should have stepped up,
told him i love you,
but i didn't,
i hid what was true,

now he talks about her all the time,
and it kills me deep inside,
because now it;s too late,
and my love for him i have to hide,

they broke up,
and i am right here,
waiting for him
making sure he doesn't see my joyful tear,

i know it sounds mean,
that i wanted them to end,
but hey what can i say,
not like she was a good girlfriend,

if so she wouldn't have left him,
broken and torn apart,
when he trusted her,
by giving her his heart

nows my chance to tell him,
but i can't make myself do it,
and you all should know,
that kind of thing is hard to admit,

but he is slipping away,
and i love him so,
and it makes me heart broken,
to see that he probably will soon go.............................

By,Denysia Chapman-madden