Living a Lie ...

All kept a secret,
Behind a disguise,
An innocent, broken girl,
Scared with all the lies.

A sad day turned into,
Months and years,
Hidden during the day,
Nights filler with tears.

Unloved and forgotten,
People look away,
Chosen not to care,
And have nothing to say.

Once you cared,
Something went wrong,
Now youre oblivious to the fact,
Its gone on for so long.

Nothings the same,
Everythings been scared,
Its my entire fault,
I made everything so hard.

Such perfect skin,
Such an imperfect life,
Now, making them the same,
With the help of a knife.

I turn my arm over,
And stare at my wrist,
Then close my eyes,
Like nothing else exists.

It makes me numb,
And I start to cry,
Not wanting to accept.
I've lived a lie...

I've made mistakes,
And this is just one more,
I have given up on everything,
Sitting here on the bathroom floor.

You will never understand
You will never be able to see,
These scars and these tears,
Are what makes me, me...