My Reality Dream~

I made my decision to go back to my dream
My dream is my past that used to be

It was a life where I was once meant to belong
thoughts race through my mind like some kind of melody or song

That life was so long ago
i was terrified of going back to those people i once said that i know

Who are they and what are they like
should I assume theyre still drinking and always in some kind of fight?

Who would i be if i still lived there
would i have any oppertunities...or would i even care?

I had to go back
so i can move on from my past

one last chance to say goodbye
one last chance to see what was left behind

I scare myself with my own thoughts
about what could have been or what was lost

Im ready to move on
and be in my adopted family..where i really belong

I know theres something missing from me
its still that empty gap thats still not complete

i just overlook it and it helps me get by
so i can stay strong and hold my head high

maybe i'll never forget my past
but i can move on into the future...and make this dream last
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i was adopted and the other day i went back to see my real family...it was more of a had to then wanted to go back and see them..its just a burden of constant thoughts that never leave you. who would you be if you still had ur very own family with you? its been 8 yrs. and not a day goes by when i dont think that thought. so anyway, i went back to see them and i wasnt exactly "dissapointed" i just came to realize....that there was nothing there for me. God knew what he was doing when He placed me here...now i just have to live up to the rest of His plan.