I just can't see

I can't see you, so I don't know
sometimes I don't understand
why my heart aches so
I only feel the hole
that was put in your place
sometimes I wonder if the
world can see it in my face
I'd guess it doesn't matter
what the world thinks of me
cause the only thing I'm sure
is that I just can't see...
...the way you grin ...the way you coo
...the way you turn your head and smile
...the way you took your first steps
...the way you fall,cry,and all the while
I just can't see...
The way you look when you're mad
cause that doll won't sit-up
Or how your face would light up
when you get your first little pup
I know you are loved now and
wonder how can this be
for all I feel is pain and confusion
cause I just can't see...
The fear in your eyes when you
take your first bus ride
Or when you bring home an A
and your face glows with pride
When that boy you think is cute
just teases you and runs away
a few years later shows up on my step
to take my little girl away
for the first of many dates
your future he might be,but
All this young love and romance
I just can't see...
Just like sisters Anna and Lydia
and your big brother Matt
You would've been so full of life
I'm convinced of that
All the love you had to give
that will never be shared
and as happy as I could've been
I just feel angry and scared
cause I just can't see...
why you had to go home with God
instead of spending you life
with me...
In memory of Arrin K Wilson
9/17/98 -9/17/98