Feelings

As i wake up in the morning
i know how i will feel,
Anxious, angry and tearful
like everythings unreal.

Halfway through my make-up
tears drip down my face,
I re-apply my mascara
and put things to a pace.

I really want to talk to someone
but no words will come out,
I hate myself for certain things
i really want to shout.

As i worked my way into college
i wished my feelings away,
But they got worse and worse
until the end of the day...

But at my time at college
i cut whenever i could,
Especially during dinner time
sometimes at break i would.

I want this all to end right now
but how, when and where,
I just need the guts to go ahead
someday i will, i swear!!!!!