Scared of death but want to die!!

I cant stop thinking about suicide
i wish it would go away,
Friends, relationships and simply life
theirs not much more to say.

I cant release the emptiness
that i still feel inside,
Its like a chunk of me is missing
i cant push it aside.

When it comes to dying
i am really scared,
And when i was in hospital
no-one really cared....

Even though I'm scared
i truly want to die,
get run over, hang myself
i just don't want to cry.

Maybe it will happen someday
i kind of hope it does,
I hate feeling the way i do
it doesn't give me a buzz!!!