Not sure weather to live!!

Its really addictive
and hard to stop,
cutting and scratching
then unscrewing the top.

Every time i feel low
thats the thing i turn to,
hurting myself
is the only thing to do.

When Ive took an overdose
sometimes I'm really glad,
but when i go in hospital
sometimes I'm really sad.

When i got out of hospital
i felt on top of the moon,
but now the months have passed
i feel like crap and hope it goes soon!!

I feel like doing something
and ending it all today,
maybe i should tell someone
but what do i say..................