Scared of the future!!

Sometimes its all so amazing
the world thats all around me,
Good times,friends and family
thats all fun, i see!

Life is best when you are young
no worries,upsets or fears,
But as a teen its all so hard
Ive never shead as many tears.

Things that happened in the past
are so horrible to think about,
But I'm so scared of the future
it makes me want to shout.....

I'm scared of it happening again
cause again life will be meaningless,
I wont recover from the hurt and pain
life's one big ugly mess!!

Thats all i think about
especially at night,
And i wake up in the morning
with a hell of a fright!!!!!!

I know for a FACT that the next bad thing
may damn well lead to suicide,
As I'm not willing to take any more
and try shove it all to one side!!!