I hate my appearance. I try to act like someone else I'm not and I hate doing that. So I quit trying. I'm just going to start wearing comfortable clothes instead of the 'high fashon' and 'fitted' clothes. A person who truly likes me for who I am and not how I look will accept that fact. Also, for another reason, I extremely hate posers. They change themselfs for the sake of trying to be someone else being themselfs. Posing is just a thing in the past for me. I say; You should stop too.
My personality may not be for the liking of everyone; and that's the way I intend it to be. I'm nice, and sometimes I'm not. I try to treat everyone the same way so no one goes unnoticed. But, I do have a habit of shutting people out when I'm upset. I do show it sometimes, but I shut them out because I like to keep my business to myself instead of spreading around the world in 8 seconds like some people do for pitty. IT'S PATHETIC. And not only pathetic, it's so self centered.
I hate being put down for my orientation. I also understand some people don't like bi/gay/lesbian people; but that's their opinion. I do like girls. I do like guys; BUT that doesn't mean I like every person that crosses my path. It's just not my nature. Get to know that fact before you judge me for it. Please. I'll approach you and tell you if I ever did feel anything toward you. Know something for a fact; don't assume it.
Cliques. I'm not in one. Don't ask. They are just a group of people putting down other people and making them feel horrible. There's nothing anyone can do to stop them; they'll just come back together if we break them up. I don't do put downs. So I like to be friends with everyone. My friends mean the world to me; and we don't believe in cliques; and we turned out best friends til the end.
Recently, I came to a conclusion about me and dating. The person who really likes me will keep trying for it. Which is no one at the moment. I know middle school has changed us and high school will change us more; but we can still work it out; try to make it happen. You never know what works out until you try it.
I love to write and read. I have a journal or a book with me about ninety percent of the time. It's the only thing that channels my emotions anymore. I am a cutter at times. That's one of the reasons I started to write poetry. I'm even trying to to write a book about the troubles I go through; the good and the bad. The ones that I've learned from and the ones that had no meanings at all.
So this is me. There's alot more to me than meets the eye. Get to know me before you judge me, get to like me before you really love me, and just be nice to me. I'll be nice to you back. Trust me if you want; I'm not going yo be your wind up doll; your Barbie; or your personal clone. No thank you.
