My Place Of Fear

I don't understand what this is, what I'm going through. It seems all to much. I can't take it any longer. I'm like a ghost with out my make up.Every day I put on a new face hoping it will get me through the day. But it never happens. I always end up with the same face. The face of shame, sadness, dullness. Except fear and loneliness takes over. I have a place to hide all my fears. And every time I go to that place every fear of mine wraps around me and sings me a lullaby. As I fall asleep the fears sleep around me keeping me safe and warm in my own little place. No one is allowed in my "Place of Fear". Cause I don't want people to know all my fears. It's my home my fears are that keep me here