Please Don't be Over

I hate that aching feeling
Of emptiness inside
The one I've grown to know so well
And still can't seem to hide.

I hate the way we talk now
With a clear, defined limit
But you said it wasn't fair for me
If you weren't completely in it.

I got where you were coming from
I get you need your space
But tears escape my eyelids
When I envision your face.

I saw all of this coming
But somehow still hit me hard
You stepped back from my life
And left me torn and hurt and marred.

Your signals contradict themselves
And leave me so confused
I'm not sure how much longer
I can take being abused.

With the way things have been going
I'm not sure what to believe
All these issues are the rocks
Within the sand I'm trying to sieve.

It wasn't worth the hell I had
For you to end it then
You blackened my life, my soul, my sky
I wish it'd never been.

But I really don't, being with you
Was as perfect as life could get
And I know I'm only hurting myself
Thinking it's not over yet.

I don't want to move on
But I guess it's time I do
I can't spend forever
Daydreaming of me and you.

So please don't make it harder
And please just let me heal
With you around I know that I
Won't be able to deal.

This goodbye isn't forever
Just right now I need to cope
Because with you out of my life
I will have lost my only hope.