One Fatal Moment

Just one pill, one hit, one shot
I miss my painkillers, liquor and pot
I miss the blade that tore my skin
That ripped the blood from deep within
But I'm out of control with my rushes and highs
Because of one fatal moment that I caught your eyes
It shouldn't have started it caused too much pain
To be with you at all, so never again
I'm sick of being dependent on some
I'm sick of hoping for death to come
You knew how I was and you know how I feel
How couldn't you figure this is how I'd deal
But don't feel bad or have pity, deal with what you must
True love is forever, all we had was lust