Why I Wounder?

What am I doing here?
What am I pursuing here

Why do I fear like this?

It is her I miss

This life is so confusing

I never end up choosing

I dont like this feeling

But my mind is slowly healing.

This is my calling

I fell myself falling

My heart is screaming

And my eyes gleaming

Am I confused or mad

Frustrated or sad

All the memories I had

Have not all gone bad.

Slowly understanding

What god is commanding

But whats going on?

Why is she gone?

I miss her so truly

I took it so brutally

I dont want to say goodbye

I wish she didn't die

Why couldn't i go with her
that brutal night.

Why couldn't she have told me
she was going to leave like this.

Why is this all going to wrong,
in my eye's I'm falling apart

Finally finding out life ain't no spark.
Life is to be treated well.

Life is to be lived as if there were no next day.

But i still want to know why.
why he took her away.

why he made me shed a tear
that heart felt day she fell.

Why cant i be with her. holding her tight.
With my arms wrapped around her soul.

But now all i do morning noon an night. is wounder why....