The Book

This is my book
A book of hate
A book of betrayals
A book of lies
And broken promises
A book about heartbreaking cries
A world thats selfish
And harsh people

Just take one look
Read the first chapter of my life
Hear my struggles and pain
Feel my thoughts
And i dare you to understand

Flip through my mind too the second chapter
Are you feeling me yet
Have you read about the deaths Ive been through
The shit Ive witnessed, and the way people treat me
Or perhaps you are still clueless

Go on too three and four
And see if you think the same as before
Are you seeing my life now?
Did you see what those people did to me
Took my heart and through it away killing me inside
People laughing when i cried

Do you see it?
Are you at five and six?
the people leaving me there lifeless
Betraying me
Lieing and watching me die inside
Not caring.....not caring
Blocking everything out
Trying to find a way to move on
But your liveing in a life full of doubt

Seven, eight, and nine
Now I'm standing in a line
Of sorrow and depression
Going through some changes
That will forever change my life
Is it still not clear?

Every things catching on
Going through life in misery
No hopes or dreams
Happiness is dieing
Hate adds on, stress builds up
Problems are born
And finishing with screwing up

Everyday every hour wishing you were dead
No one is there, nothing is said
Always talking with nothing to say
Fading form this world everyday
Nothing to live for, nothing to die for
Then what happens?

Ten, eleven, and twelve
School work comes in
and confusion comes over to play
Decisions decisions and decisions
Too many things racing through this mind
Past times replayed over again

Thirteen says there is nowhere i can go, nothing i can do
No one i can count on, no one to turn too
When you reach the end
Thats if you reach
The final chapter of my life
You will have a little slice of what its really like to be me