How can a model have such negative,
outlooks on her body.
Is her image distorted?
Does she not see,
what we the photographers capture?
Most people ask me how I could,
dislike my face.
And covett anothers.
The truth is simply,
that I don't know.
All the compliments should add up,
but they just don't.
And with no where to go,
I sit at home.
Stare in the mirror,
and grieve alone.
I want this person's thighs,
and another girls abs.
But then I feel guilty,
for not having just that.
So the next two days,
I don't eat at all.
And burn off energy,
In excess longhalls.
I feel good for a day,
but when I eat again.
it starts all over,
and it falls apart again.
Because I cannot get that body,
that I so badly want.
Terrified and distraught am I,
I'm fearful of my own.
Fat and hopeless body.
That I don't want to longer have known.
