Sorry to I'm not sorry anymore(updated)

I'm sorry for getting in your way
Maybe I'm sorry that I ever met you
I'm sorry for all the pain I caused you
For all that BS that you put up with
You'll find someone better
Better than I ever was
I know you will
Because you already found better
I'll get out of your life with a final poem just for you
If you need me
Go look outside to the river
Because its the river that I have cried for you
I gave you my heart
And you knew it
I will not do suicide because suicide is not the answer.
But if I die
I know you won't give a damn
I finally figured out
Your not worth it..
You hurt me in so many ways
Why should I say sorry now?
For trying to help you through all those hard times?
For giving you my heart and soul and using it?
Seems like you never felt for me at all
So after I told you of all my pain
now you say sorry.
Do i have to tell you you of pain or are you too blind to see it.
Even though I'll find someone better,
It'll be hard to move on
But I know i'll make it
Maybe you'll have more water in your river of yours but i'll make it as time goes on
And say sorry all you want,
I can't forgive you this time
And i won't.
I've changed and still will but yet inside I see you grow smaller and smaller while I grow bigger and more mature that you will ever be.
This is my last poem to you...
Now I will finally try to put you behind me
And look to a better future other than this pain that I have been holding