This feeling.

This feeling i have.
I just cant describe.
Its like being numb.
Only on the INSIDE.

It leaves me confused.
And full of guilt.
Because i have EVERYTHING.
But still yet i wilt.

Lifes almost too good.
And i NEED to breakout.
Like i have no voice.
And all i want is to shout.

But i dont know the trigger.
What causes this feeling.
I have friends family & LOVE.
To help me with dealing.

Most days I am fine.
Then i get like this.
Like i want to EXPLODE.
From an onlookers bliss.

But soon ill be fine.
And not want to look back.
On my childish behaviour.
This FEELING of slack.

I know very well that this piece isnt that good. But it's how im feeling right now and i needed to get it off my chest.