Sad thoughts on an ordinary day

Leafs surrounds
yellow and red
both flowers and trees
will soon be dead

Looking at me
a fading sound
chuckling voices
binds me to the ground

voices from the past
memories near
in my mind and my heart
I've found you my dear

It's an illusion
and at the same time my dream
that someday
I will be a part of your team

Blowing in the wind
a cold shadow of reality
I was only 1 out of 100 pictures
That now hangs in your gallery

An unknown picture
of a man you once knew
thoughts for me?
I guess only a few

can I somehow
throw my pain in the flames
then I again
will feel warm blood in my vanes

And with time
warmth will reach my heart
then someday
there will be a whole new start

I do nor dare dreaming
of a life without pain
cause a body without feelings
is a body driving insane

once again the cold wind calls
I am all alone
It's almost midnight
Guess it's time to go home