So Many Reasons

Just too many I think to myself today
too many reasons why I don't need you to stay
You left me alone on September 23rd
didn't care that I was crying and didn't care that I hurt
you just turned your back on our children and I
You saw the tears that fell from our eyes
Just too many reasons why I shouldn't let you come in
one: is you being away too long to commit your sins
two: is that you hurt me and didn't even care
three: is that it was too much trouble for you to be there
four: is I found out that you were untrue
five: is that you left me crying for you
six: is the stress I was under day after day
seven: is the nights I stayed up late
eight: is the way the kids were feeling down
nine: is the sadness we all found
ten: is the way I was left with all the bills
eleven: is the relationship you killed
twelve: is the way you called me mean names
thirteen: is why I don't feel the same
fourteen: is when I found those girls numbers in your car
fifteen: is me finding out who you truly are
sixteen: is the way I'm left alone to raise our kids
seventeen: is the way you throw your fits
eighteen: is the way you raised your hand to my face
nineteen: is the painful memories I can't erase
and twenty above all is the way you didn't love me
so why is it so hard to let my heart break free