My phone is ringing yet again for the millionth time today.. i read the caller id and throw it down. i go back to watching the sad heart throbbing love stories that have been on my flat screen TV for the last 48 hours.. i get up only to get another tub of Ben and Jerry\\\'s out of the freezer and sit my lazy carefree but back down into the couch.. i hear a knock at my door but i just pick up the remote and turn the volume up. i hear a threat being made on the other side of the door toward me but i just ignore it. just like a magic trick my door is suddenly ajar and i see Jake standing in the door way. he takes a deep breath and takes a look around. he will probably see Ben and Jerry\\\'s on the floor along with pizza boxes, soda cans and any clothing i decided not to put away. he walks up to me with his jaw hitting the ground. \\\" Heidi what the hell in Gods good earth are you doing to yourself?\\\" i don\\\'t take a chance at glancing at him i just reply with a slow monotone voice of hurt.. \\\" self therapy, seems to be working..\\\" the next thing i know I\\\'m in his arms like a broom and a bride going to their honeymoon sweet, except for the whole marriage and happy joy feelings.. he is taking me to the bath room and dumps me in the shower. i try to get up but right as I\\\'m almost standing he turns on the shower to freezing Arctic cold. i scream for what feels like a min. tops.. but then i get myself together and finally I\\\'m awake and am aware of my surroundings, feelings and words.
