Alone

I sit here
day and night
still in my hole
i pray the light will come
but the longer i sit the more i doubt it will show.....
tiny specks of hope and happiness come and go
i wish, oh how i wish one would stay.
it feels so good to laugh again
but the better it feels the faster it fades away
all alone, in the dark
sitting here in this hole
in the distance i hear laughter
hopfully it is mine.
it isn't
it just passes by